Friend or Foe?

Hello my dearest reader,

I got an opening question for you all. 

Have you ever felt that you love and care for someone that big, but then you realize that you are not that important on their life?

What do you feel about it? Sad? Disappointed? Upset? Or maybe all that?

Same here! 

Recently, i just realize that a few persons i care about were not that into me. They talked about me behind my back. They mocked and laughed at me. They acted different to me. It's not like i didnt see it. I just refuse to care about that. Because if they were true friends, they will not talked behind my back. 

I should have realize from the very beginning i'm not part of them. They were different from me. And i shouldn't try too hard to keep them up. If they consider me as best friend or at least friend, they will try to understand me. They will not always told me to understood them instead. 

Well, that's a lesson to be learnt. Alhamdulillah, i have my true friends. So even they have done that to me, i will try not to care. If they meant to be, they will be. 

I just wish that i could be a better person than them. And i wont hurt anyone heart and always respect other's feeling. Aamiin

Have a good night, fellas!! 

I loe you!! Good luck!!

It's Always You

It's always you. 

I dont know how and i dont know why. 

Why it's always you who can comfort me. 

Why it's always you who can mock me but still make me smile. 

Why it's always you that can make me fall in love again and again. 

If someone say, to make love eternal we should falling in love again and again with the same person, then it's you!

You are the one that can always make me flattered. 

You are the one that can always build my confidante. 

You are the one that can always see my flaws yet you always show me all the goodness in me. 

It's always you. 

And i guess, even when i'm with someone else, i will always keep a space for you in my heart. Because somehow, you complete me and i dont need anyone else to do it. 

Because...

It's always you, M!!

Life a little rough

Hello everyone,

How are you all? I hope you all doing right and God bless you all.

Well, it's been a long time since the last time I made a post here. Time flies too fast and many works to do. And of course many things to thought about and focused on. But, it's okay I guess. I'm happy as long as my God still with me all time.

Today, I found a great picture in my facebook timeline. #akindreminder and #notetoself for me. Lately, I feel that I'm getting closer to Allah and I'm happy for that. And I'm trying to do my best to be better every day. 
I was trying to hold my anger, my disappointment, and all my problems in a good way. I was trying to feel that all of that come to me as a 'caring' from Allah. Allah knows what's best for me and Allah loves me that BIG. 

Sometimes, we thought that we've done good things and never done bad things but still life seems a little rough for us. That's not because Allah didn't response to your prayer and saw all good things you've done. Allah wants hear your voice and prayer a little bit longer. Allah wants you to depends only with Allah not else.

Just keep up the faith. Allah will never let you down. Never lost faith.
Allah loves you. Believe that. Always

Well said :)

Do the best and never lost your love to God. Because we are nothing in this universe. 

Good luck.

Have a happy life!

Ho'oponopono

“If we can accept that we are the sum total of all past thoughts, emotions, words, deeds and actions and that our present lives and choices are colored or shaded by this memory bank of the past, then we begin to see how a process of correcting or setting aright can change our lives, our families and our society.”

- Morrnah   Nalamaku Simeona -

Don't Wanna Hold This Feeling...

It's really hard to always feel this feeling
But I'm too stupid to let this feeling go
Because once I decide to lose this feeling
My life won't be the same anymore

This feeling is one of the greatest gift God ever gave to me
And I don't wanna lose this feeling
It's the feeling of loving you

But I'm not that strong to see you with other woman
Especially when that woman is not worth for you
When I know that you spend time with her
It just killing me inside, slowly

Suddenly my mood changed
And my heart skipped a beat
And it really hurt deep down
This feeling called jealousy

I don't know how I felt this
All I know that this heart had been stolen by you
Every time, every moment, it's only you
It's always have and always been you

Let me keep this feeling
Though it brings me down
I won't let go

I love you

Desperately In Love

As you know, love can be very hard to handle.

But love can be so beautiful too.

When you love someone that can't be yours, your heart hurt deep inside.

But when the one you love loves you back, the world seems even brighter than before.

Sometimes it's complicated.

But sometimes it's so simple.

When you desperately in love with someone, your heart is so vulnerable.

But when you get the love you want, your heart feels so light and happy.

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I just wishing that maybe someday,

I will  find someone like you, M.

Because you know,

When you came to my life, you make my life even brighter, lighter, and happier.

Even though you came at the wrong time and the wrong situation,

I never feel sorry for that.

Because you are the best thing that ever came to my life.

And I thank God for that.

Love you much! 

<3

New Environment

It's been a long long time since the last time I made a post. Life's been busy for a few months.

Well, every of us is sometimes scared of changes. Changes can make us uncomfortable, agree?

In early September, I faced a change in my life. I've done the thing I scared to do. And I really confused to do it at the start. But I braced myself and try to do it anyway. And as the results, it's not as hard as I thought before. And I actually done really well with it.

I was entering a new environment in my office. I accepted the offer from my partner in work to become his PA. At first, I was afraid and shame to do it, not because the job but because of myself. 

But Alhamdulillah, it's better than I thought. And I was happy with it. Wish this is the best decision I made for my career. And hope with this job, I could done my job to be promoted at the end of the year smoothly. Aamiin.

Moral of the story is don't be afraid and scared to do things that you thought can change your life into the better life. Because you never know if you never try.
Have a good day all!!

Good luck! <3